So I've been reading a ton of blogs about IVF.. so many different backgrounds, stories & outcomes. Many have been successful, many have not & many are still in limbo. As I am a complete virgin to IVF, I must say it's a tad overwhelming. I become down after reading how women are on IVF #4, #5, etc. with still no baby. Then there are the heartbreaking tales of IVF working only to miscarry. My goal in becoming part of this community was to educate myself, but also to not feel alone in wondering if I will ever become a mother. Don't misunderstand...I adore all the blogs & anxiously await updates on all of them, but is it a case of too much information in the age of the internet? Is ignorance bliss? Can't someone just tell me that IVF will work for me & that I will carry the baby to term!?!?
On a horribly sad note, my dad's brother died unexpectedly this morning of a massive heart attack. I am worried about my dad - he had quadruple bypass surgery 7 yrs ago & I'm sure this has him thinking about his own mortality. Plus this was the brother he was closest to - the one that always made him laugh. I am headed down to my hometown tomorrow for the viewing in the p.m. & the service in the a.m. next day. This will only be the 2nd time I've returned there since my mom died 4 1/2 yrs ago and I'm already anticipating the breaking of my heart once again. So many reminders & too many "in my face" memories...how people ever remain in the same city (much less, house) where their deceased loved one died is beyond my comprehension. Thank God I have Stark; otherwise I probably wouldn't even go. He is my rock & it's days like today that I'm keenly aware of how lucky I am to have him.
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